Im trying to live each day to the fullest. It's hard sometimes, you get caught up in the hustle and bustle of everyday life, work, laundry, dinner, keeping Zack entertained, spending time with my hubby.... worrying about paying bills, cleaning the house.... it's soo hard sometimes, but I've realized that life is too short to let one day go bye without stopping and smelling the roses. Since dad passed away almost 5 months there is not a moment in my day that I dont think about him and ask God why did you have to take him from us... I know the reason why he is up in Heaven, I know he's not suffering anymore, and that is a good thing, but I am being selfish I guess for wanting him here with us. Zack and I took a flower to him that said grandpa on it on Saturday. We talked to papa for a little while and Zack tapped me on the shoulder and told me not to be sad or to cry any tears cause papa was up in heaven watching us and he is up there talking and walking like he hasnt done in soo long. So from the eyes of Zack, who always has a smile on his face and a sparkle in his eye I am trying to live everyday to the fullest and to be happy like papa would have wanted us to be.