Every year I promise myself I am going to write on a daily basis and every year by the second post I am not doing it...

So much going on in  my life right now. I think the winter blues have hit me and I mean really punched me in the face. I sit here and think of all the things in my life that I am grateful for. My husband and his health, my son and his contagious smile and the rest of my family,,,all the other usual stuff that a person is thankful for, a roof over my head, food on the table, clothes on my back, even if they dont fit cause I am too fat lol.... somedays that just isnt enough for me.. I know that sounds ungrateful and horrible of me but today is one of those days. I am tired of struggling with paying our bills, Kevin gets mad at me and tells me all I think about it money but sitting here alone most of the day that's all I think about ... He works hard for his paycheck and so do I, is it too much to want to not have so many bills and to struggle so much? I wish we could just pick up one day and take off on the spur of the moment and not have to worry about bills and being a grown up..maybe my day will come some day but until then I sit here crying like a big baby for no apparent reason..... until tomorrow

Happy New Year...
Wow, what a year 2012 was.  Kevin and his health scare really put a damper on the year, made us both really put our lives into perspective and try to live a better life for ourselves and our family. Thankfully Kevin's health is improving everyday and things are under control. As if his health wasnt enough his mom passed away 2 weeks before Christmas. Sort of unexpected, we all knew that mom had given up long time ago, actually after his dad passed in 92.  But you can never prepare yourself for losing your mom.  She was sick and I believe gave up long time ago, she is in a better place and not suffering anymore.

Zack is growing so much, he is becoming quite the young man that I knew he would grow up to be.  He never ceases to amaze me.  Where has the time gone, he is already in middle school and doing very well in school.  He has his moments, dont get me wrong, but I believe puberty is starting to set in.  Love him so much and am so proud of who he is becoming!

I have goals for this new year as I do every year.  The usual, lose weight, I have to get healthy.  I also want to focus time on myself and take my photography seriously and take a pic a day. 

Soooooo,,, Happy New Year all

The holidays are approaching fastly, faster than I would like them too.. Ready or not they will be here before I can finish all my preparations.  Tree is up and decorated as well as the rest of the house... Presents are bought, well at least for Zack they are, money is tight this year and I am trying to give gifts that mean something, that are homemade and from the heart.  I hope everyone likes what I have been working so hard on the past few weeks.  What ever happened to the simple things in life?  When it was all about getting together with your loved ones and celebrating the true meaning of Christmas?  I hope that we all take a step back and find the true meaning of Christmas before it is too late.

It's been so long since I've written so here goes nothing....

Ever stop for a moment and realize that you need to put your life in persepective?  It seems like my mind is always racing, it never turns off, the wheels are always turning.  I find that I worry about everything, some of things are little simple things, that I probably shouldnt even be worrying about and other things are bigger, more complex things that I should not be worrying about because I am not able to change them.. I try so hard not to get caught up in this trap of worrying, but it's hard sometimes not to. 

I am trying to focus on the little and simple things in life.  I have come to realize the old cliche that life really is too short and we have to make the best out of the time that we have here.  After my husband got sick this past April, it really made me realize that I have to stop and enjoy the everyday things that make me smile...  so today I am going to laugh like I have never laughed and smile with the biggest cheesiest grin and have everyone wonder what I am grinning about 

• Finally Friday

Ohh how I love thee, let me count the ways..

Been a long work week, suffering with a 2 day old migraine, Friday you are so welcome to be here

I finally have a 2 day weekend, that doesnt happen very often, Friday ohh how I've missed you


Tomorrow my 2 favorite boys and I are going to Covered Bridge Festival, Friday ohh how I love you

End of the school week for Zack,,, ohh Friday you are the best...

My favorite time of year, FALL.... time to dig out the hoodies, the sweaters, the scents of the season, apples and pumpkins.  Been rainy the past 2 days, which means it's best to lay on the couch with a good book and my favorite blanket.  Love to hear the pitter patter of the rain on my windows, feel the crisp cool air. 

This weekend going down to the Covered Bridge Festival in Southern Indiana with my 2 favorite boys, hubby and son.  Such a beautiful ride down there, I will be taking my camera and getting shots of the changing of the leaves.  I cant wait, inspires me to take more pictures and to get my holiday crafting on.

Mondays have always been hectic in our house.  It is Kevin's day off, Zack starts the school week again and another week of chaos starts...  Having a child with ADHD is a constant daily struggle, never know what personality we will get that particular day, especially it being a Monday. This past Monday was especially challenging, not only because it was dreaded Monday but because Zack was trying out for the school basketball team and the roster was being posted today during school... Kevin and I anxiously awaited for Zack to get home after school, we would support him and of course be proud of him no matter if he made the team or not... After school Zack gets home and appears to be in a good mood, this could be scarey or not, could be the sign of something good. I ask Zack about the team and he tells me he didnt make the team, he is saying this with a grin on his face so deep down I am relieved that he made the team and super excited for him.  As it turns out he did not make the team, but he is still in a good mood and still smiling. Not sure if Zack is trying to put on a strong face for me even though he is upset or if he truely is ok with not making the team.... Zack told us that he is happy he tried out for the team and said it was a good experience and that 3 of his buddies were mad and upset that he didnt make the team and that made him feel good... I am so proud of Zack and his courage for trying out for the team. He told me "mom things happen for a reason and it wasnt my time to be on the team"  that just melted my heart!!! I love him so much and I am sooo proud of the little man he is starting to become....