Every year I promise myself I am going to write on a daily basis and every year by the second post I am not doing it...

So much going on in  my life right now. I think the winter blues have hit me and I mean really punched me in the face. I sit here and think of all the things in my life that I am grateful for. My husband and his health, my son and his contagious smile and the rest of my family,,,all the other usual stuff that a person is thankful for, a roof over my head, food on the table, clothes on my back, even if they dont fit cause I am too fat lol.... somedays that just isnt enough for me.. I know that sounds ungrateful and horrible of me but today is one of those days. I am tired of struggling with paying our bills, Kevin gets mad at me and tells me all I think about it money but sitting here alone most of the day that's all I think about ... He works hard for his paycheck and so do I, is it too much to want to not have so many bills and to struggle so much? I wish we could just pick up one day and take off on the spur of the moment and not have to worry about bills and being a grown up..maybe my day will come some day but until then I sit here crying like a big baby for no apparent reason..... until tomorrow