Every year I promise myself I am going to write on a daily basis and every year by the second post I am not doing it...

So much going on in  my life right now. I think the winter blues have hit me and I mean really punched me in the face. I sit here and think of all the things in my life that I am grateful for. My husband and his health, my son and his contagious smile and the rest of my family,,,all the other usual stuff that a person is thankful for, a roof over my head, food on the table, clothes on my back, even if they dont fit cause I am too fat lol.... somedays that just isnt enough for me.. I know that sounds ungrateful and horrible of me but today is one of those days. I am tired of struggling with paying our bills, Kevin gets mad at me and tells me all I think about it money but sitting here alone most of the day that's all I think about ... He works hard for his paycheck and so do I, is it too much to want to not have so many bills and to struggle so much? I wish we could just pick up one day and take off on the spur of the moment and not have to worry about bills and being a grown up..maybe my day will come some day but until then I sit here crying like a big baby for no apparent reason..... until tomorrow

Happy New Year...
Wow, what a year 2012 was.  Kevin and his health scare really put a damper on the year, made us both really put our lives into perspective and try to live a better life for ourselves and our family. Thankfully Kevin's health is improving everyday and things are under control. As if his health wasnt enough his mom passed away 2 weeks before Christmas. Sort of unexpected, we all knew that mom had given up long time ago, actually after his dad passed in 92.  But you can never prepare yourself for losing your mom.  She was sick and I believe gave up long time ago, she is in a better place and not suffering anymore.

Zack is growing so much, he is becoming quite the young man that I knew he would grow up to be.  He never ceases to amaze me.  Where has the time gone, he is already in middle school and doing very well in school.  He has his moments, dont get me wrong, but I believe puberty is starting to set in.  Love him so much and am so proud of who he is becoming!

I have goals for this new year as I do every year.  The usual, lose weight, I have to get healthy.  I also want to focus time on myself and take my photography seriously and take a pic a day. 

Soooooo,,, Happy New Year all